I am so tired of this whole endometriosis, trying to conceive, prolactinoma, nausea thing. It's driving me crazy!!!!! I feel so damned defective......and it's not a feeling I can stop!
I started on the bromocriptine again on Monday and I have felt incredibly sick since then, but I just don't feel like adding anti-nausea tablets to the daily regime! To add to that, my period is late, which stresses me, because it means that the prolactinoma is really wreaking havoc. My hair is falling out, in fact, it has been for three months now, and the vit B injections don't seem to be helping any! All I want to do all day is sleep, I feel so terrible.
I am actually also terrified of getting that monthly visitor, because the pain was so bad last month that I just wanted to curl up and die.....and the cyst is still there so it will probably be the same this month!
Now I have to start the pill again to control the cyst.....which means I will bloat up to an enormous size again!!!! I just can't wait! Oh, and the RE suggests jogging as a way to keep it down. That would be fine if I wasn't nauseous all the time.....and asthmatic to boot!
Ok, so in general, I am just feeling sorry for myself, but seeing babies everywhere I turn really doesn't help, I mean, the number of babies and pregnant women I see seem to increase exponentially as the years of ttc roll by........or is it just me seeing things?
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